Quotes for Tonight

Just some quotes for tonight. My night hasn't gone anything like I planned, and I don't know what it is about quotes from literature, poems, songs, and movies but they mesmerize me and ease my mind. I began watching Meet Joe Black, an amazing movie with amazing music and amazing quotes. It just got me on a roll. I hope you enjoy some that particularly caught my interest.

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. I say, fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back. How do you find him? Well, you forget your head, and you listen to your heart. And I'm not hearing any heart. Cause the truth is, honey, there's no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love, well, you haven't lived a life at all. But you have to try, cause if you haven't tried, you haven't lived." -Meet Joe Black (wonderful movie, a must watch for those who haven't seen it.) 

“We don’t stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.” -George Bernard Shaw

"The woods are lovely, dark, and deep, But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep. 
                                                      -Robert Frost 

"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference." -Robert Frost 

"My life closed twice before its close; It yet remains to see If Immortality unveil A third event to me, So huge, so hopeless to conceive, As these that twice befell. Parting is all we know of heaven, And all we need of hell." -Emily Dickenson

What Do Women Want?

I want a red dress. 
I want it flimsy and cheap, 
I want it too tight, I want to wear it 
until someone tears it off me. 
I want it sleeveless and backless, 
this dress, so no one has to guess 
what's underneath. I want to walk down
the street past Thrifty's and the hardware store 
with all those keys glittering in the window, 
past Mr. and Mrs. Wong selling day-old 
donuts in their café, past the Guerra brothers 
slinging pigs from the truck and onto the dolly, 
hoisting the slick snouts over their shoulders. 
I want to walk like I'm the only 
woman on earth and I can have my pick. 
I want that red dress bad.
I want it to confirm 
your worst fears about me, 
to show you how little I care about you 
or anything except what 
I want. When I find it, I'll pull that garment 
from its hanger like I'm choosing a body 
to carry me into this world, through 
the birth-cries and the love-cries too, 
and I'll wear it like bones, like skin, 
it'll be the goddamned 
dress they bury me in.

-Kim Addonizio

Not Waving But Drowning 

Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.

Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.

Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(Still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

-Stevie Smith

My next adventure...pastel pink

It is time!! It has been a little over a year since I have done one of my signature hair-color changes. Currently, my hair is in its natural blonde state, before that it was black, before that purple, before that hot pink, and the list goes on. I love the thrill of a drastic physical change.

Let me reflect back. The black hair came to be during finals week, the purple was an upcoming wedding, and the hot pink was a breakup. It always seems that when I am undergoing stress I seek out this small, simple change in my life. When I feel like I am stuck in a given situation and don't have the option to make a choice, I change my hair color.

This got me to wondering; what is this main source of stress pushing me this time? I am enjoying my new job, things are good with the family, but my relationship life is definitely a problem. This, though, is nothing new, so I am not sure that this is the cause. Maybe, i am just ready to be noticed. Maybe, I want a little attention. I am usually ok with being in the background and letting everyone else lead. Maybe, I am expecting this out of the ordinary hair color to boost my confidence and help me take a hesitant step forward.

Needless to say, my family hates the idea of me having pink hair again. My ex-boyfriend that I really care about, well that was a major put down. It seems that if I change my hair color it will change who I am in his eyes. I agree, looks are very important at times. It is important to look professional and keep yourself well-kept, but just because I have pink hair doesn't change who I am. I am still a caring, friendly, and ordinary person. I am simply trying to define myself and most of all express myself. I am artistic. I love the beauty of the world, the colors and the textures. I want to be part of that myself. I don't want to always be just like everyone else.

I understand that doing this will cause me to be judged by people, even by people who know me. I admit that even I judge people based on first impressions. While these physical impressions can tell us a lot about someone's life, it doesn't define the person that they are. Recently, I met a man covered in tattoos and piercings with his hair piled high in dreads. I was immediately intimidated by his appearance, but after talking to him I realized he was one of the friendliest people you could ever meet. This made me so happy. He has expressed himself exteriorly in a way many people don't understand or approve of but has maintained the kind and gentle person that he is.

I have three tattoos and have had my share of piercings and different hair colors. I am sure that I don't always look like the good girl that mothers want their sons to meet, but I think that I would make an amazing girlfriend despite the color of my hair. It scares me that I won't meet the right person because he will judge me wrongly, but if this is the case then he wasn't the guy for me.

I also have an important role in the community now with my job. I have only been with this job for three months but have already started to establish myself in this position and people now recognize who I am. I am hoping that this change of my physical self won't change their judgements of me in anyway, but overall I am really excited to see people's reactions. I have noticed throughout my life that I love to shock people. That shock factor is like an adrenaline rush for me. It has probably gotten me in trouble a time or two by saying things I shouldn't have, but it's always something that has got me going.
Well, I think this one will do the trick! Next time you see me, I will probably have a different hair color. I am going in to have Alex Giessler at Next in Van Wert do my hair. She does wonderful things and is great at her job. I am excited to have her do this for me. I definitely recommend her work.

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